so I woke up exceptionally early this morning. my alarm rang at 7:30am like normal and instead of my usual, wake, reach out, nap, wake, reach out, nap cycle, I just woke up.

recently i’ve been noticing that I just before i sleep at my girlfriends apartment, I pull the covers up over my head, so I’m deeply hidden under the warm, soft, flannel. I think that in a way I’ve been trying to hide from things and I think that I’ve been trying to take that moment before I fall asleep and hide from all the pressure of my normal life.

normal life in recent months or weeks or whatever, has taken a steadily more and more pressured stance. I basically have to deal with taking on more responsibility at work. while this very natural, quite expected sentence might sound harmless enough, it come with tons of problems.

I’ve been quietly ignoring this 400 lb gorilla of ‘more responsibility’ pretty much since finshing college. ok, well it might been before then even, but it’s only now; my 29th birthday is only about two weeks, that I feel even remotely able to take it on.

But the best part of this realisation is that I feel ready. More ready than I’ve ever felt. And it’s exciting to know this.

I’m 29 in two weeks. christ. it’s about time.

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